Here I was in B & N once again since new magazines come out on Wednesdays and Fridays here in my town. Once again, I was in the biography section of books looking at Traci Lords biography. It is so damn tempting to get but I want to wait for a few days til it gets closer for me to leave for south again (2 weeks!). You see, I love to read on the road more than just to pass the day at home. 3 and a half hours while your mom is driving is not always fun. It's also kind of funny how Mom won't let me drive since I go too fast.

As we know, at least those that grew up in the 80s, Traci was a porn star at the age of 15. Wow! It's funny how she doesn't like to talk about this. I know that if I was doing porn films at 15, I would talk about it to anyone that would listen. All of these films except "Traci, I Love You" had to be destroyed as a result of the FBI finding out about all this. Traci's posing for Penthouse at the age of 16 was somehow overlooked and now a collector's item.

The reason I could never be a porn star is I have no interest in fucking every woman I see. *It's also not that I can't get a thick dick on camera. I most likely will be able to do this since it never seems to go down* To me, a man's sexual prowess is not defined by how many conquests. Women are not games to be played with. That's why I have always wanted one that has brains and beauty. This combination is so hard to find in this town since it's always one or the other.

Another reason is that I am far too loyal. All I need is one. No more. I guess I am a bit of a romantic inside in thinking this but I don't care. Maybe it's the strong female models that I have grown up with, my mom and Sigourney Weaver (Aliens). Don't laugh but as a kid, I admired women that took care of themselves instead of falling down while wearing high heels to be killed by a serial murderer. My mom and Sigourney have always made me proud. I know for a fact that if I was in deep trouble, my mom would pick up a AK-47 and shoot the shit out of any fucker that comes for me. That fitness is paying off for her at Curves, huh?

I've heard time after time that guys want to fuck 2 girls at once. It is *sorta* interesting to see 2 girls licking my cock but the fantasy goes away rather quickly. You see, I've done it. My friends are all jealous that I had sex with A and her roommate one afternoon that involved me passing out during sex. *We had too much Schmirnoffs* I really don't care about it at all.

It's never come to mind to stray while in a relationship. I've always been sexually satisfied since it really is a give and take situation. Most men expect to have wild sex with their mates but they don't put much efort into their part. All it takes from my own experiences is a slow tongue that makes her go crazy since foreplay is important. Yeah, there were some times where I've fucked without doing that since it was a time to be wild or too much of a testosterone overcharge. Fucking and making love are 2 different things. Both have their importance.

Oh, let's get off of the topic of sex for a bit. I'm a little moody even though the air is so much cooler today. It's the result of a late night thunderstorm. Oh, how I sleep so soundly through them as light crashes into my room. It pays to leave your shades open. I've never really cared if people see me change clothes or dance around when I get all giddy.

We had an interesting little animal chase. I felt like The Crocodile Hunter when I noticed a little beaver gathering grass and twigs across the street. My mom and I gave chase to get a better look at it but got into the drainage before we got there. Oh, so cute! It ran by doing this little hopping motion with all these things in its mouth. I love beavers. *snickers*

Tomorrow, I will have to overcome my fear of putting together this large scrapbook because I really need to start on it. I'm a bit of a perfectionist so I need a lot of time for doing it and cursing myself during possible mistakes. That means I have to go in search of a book to start it all in. Wish me luck. Over 150 photos of us all and me in Canada plus St. Louis.

My spider bite? The swelling is going down slowly. Tomorrow, it should be a tiny red dot about to close up into nothing. All I have to say in ending this is that I am going to keep an eye out on that little beaver across the street. I also hope the new Coldplay video for "The Scientist" will be back on. You're right, Stan. It's fucking cool! Hopefully this long entry did not bore anyone. You will not be getting your money back.

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